I'm an experienced relapser myself, I've cycled between quitting for months versus smoking for months in the same year.

Smoking is a choice. So, not smoking follows the same rationale.

But what I can share what I've learned is how to manage thoughts that could land anywhere on the emotional spectrum (depression, violence, anxiety, etc.).

Your thoughts of any type will always remain as thoughts, they arrive for no reason and you can't stop their existence from happening.

But you can accept that the thought is there. Do not engage with it, just awknowledge its existence, then let it go from you. That thought of yours holds just the amount of meaning that you attach to it, nothing more. The meaningfulness of a thought begins and ends with you.

Learning this thought experiment and/or idea has taken beter part of a year to really matter where I feel confortable swatting away thoughts I know would trigger a deeper slide into endless mania. Relief exists in more productive areas besides tobacco!