Long hair with bangs in boy mode?

Well before I knew about transgender people, or that it was even possible to avoid male puberty (though I had certainly tried, poisoning my body with every household chemical I could find for several years as well as physically torturing myself in the hopes of stunting my growth. Would not recommend doing that, fuck this world for letting me think I was just sick in the head and not telling me there was a better way), I had almost exclusively had bangs, and for a good while had long hair and bangs. Unfortunately, hair loss made it impossible to have bangs anymore, but I'm hoping I can do something about that in the next three years. If not, I do already have my exit plan laid out.

This is what I looked like a few years back. Not a lot of pictures from that time period, sorry. Nobody had even the slight suspicion that I wished to be a girl and resented being male so much that I had no interest in human interaction. Or much of anything about me, really. They just knew that I had been quiet, shy, and depressed my whole life, had a weird habit of spending hours shaving my face, complaining about wanting electrolysis, knew that I tried to burn off my facial hair when I was younger, straightened my hair frequently, always styled my hair into bangs as soon as possible after any haircut, got annoyed at being compared to or grouped with guys and non-reactive when compared to girls, and mostly left me alone except to yell at me that I was too lazy.

People have their own shit to worry about. At the end of the day, they don't really give a damn about you. Or pay much attention to you. Or see how much pain you're in, how much your mental and physical health has declined, or see that you're desperate for anybody to try and help you. Nobody is thinking about you until you've fallen so far that you've planned out your suicide and start telling people the secret you intended to take to the grave in the hopes that you will be disowned so that nobody you care about will be hurt when you die.

You have to be 100% open with people, or you're as good as invisible. Nobody notices shit. People be dense as fuck, yo.

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