Losing virginity on LSD to long-time best-friend/lover(thoughts?)

It took a while for her to realize that the guys what she was with whom she trusted in were using her. Of course, being the friend I am, I supported her decisions and never let the slightest hint of jealousy show. Over time she suddenly realized just how deep our feelings and understanding for each other are compared to our previous experiences with relationships. Our idea of a relationship is a far-fetched idea compared to those practiced by others our age.

It started with a night of 5-MAPB. She calls me out of NOWHERE during a while I was rolling fucking face and I broke down into tears when a flood of memories of everything she's for me, and how she's been there the WHOLE time to string me along until I caught a glimpse of the light. Even when I was thrown in the loony bin a few times she still continued to call me and check up on me. Nobody has ever taken the extra mile like that for me... I guess maybe it's her way of returning the favor for the same things I do for her. We had a tearful chat, and from that night onwards my feelings for her continued to deepen over the days, until one night I asked her to be mine. It took a few boy mishaps herself (and maybe me helping her through them) to what get to what she refers to as "waking the fuck up." She's all over the country right now atm yet we continue to keep contact every day.

We're both very emotional, deeply spiritual, and sensual individuals. The reason I considered losing my virginity on LSD was due to my understanding of the bonding nature that it can provide even between two people who aren't touching each other. I don't want to just fuck her - I wanted to give her a piece of my soul.

Blinded by love? Yes, perhaps. But her and I are the only things in my life I'm 100% confident in. Reddit can downplay these feelings for each other all the fuck they want, I know it's real.

I'd get even more into our bond to each other, but obviously reddit is deadset on downvoting my every post, so it is no longer of value :)

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