I’m only a few weeks into the break up but I’m already worried I’ll feel the same as you.

I think once you’ve experienced a good, loving relationship with good sex it’s hard to compare to meaningless engagements that lead to nothing. I can imagine feeling more lonely if anything.

I am sure you will find that again though, maybe you’re just not cut out to be a one night stand kinda guy. I’ve had a lot of my friends say we should go out and I can flirt and kiss guys for the first time (I was with my previous partner since 15/16 and now late 20s so missed all of that) but honestly I want nothing less.

I do think perhaps you should look into the depression side though as obviously it is a symptom however one of many symptoms.

Be patient with yourself, it’ll happen eventually but maybe you just need to naturally create a bond first.