I lost my partner due to my illness and it’s all my fault

Very much agree with this. ^^

My ex and I had a similar relationship to what OP described. I really felt he accepted me and loved me for who I was, even with my illness. It just takes a toll on the other person that you can't predict. The way I look at it now, years after our breakup, is that he wasn't strong enough to stay with me. He left me because he couldn't be the person I needed him to be.

Yes, it has been hard, and it often feels so lonely without a partner to lean on when you're feeling like crap. But now, I'm with someone else who doesn't bat an eyelash when I tell him I'm in a lupus flare—it just feels like his support is guaranteed. I haven't had to beg for it or make excuses for the state of my health, which he knows I can't control. I know exactly how it is to feel like there is no one else for you, but I promise it will get better. I will freely admit that I still love my ex, but I know now that what he offered me wasn't enough.

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