I was really hoping I could say something here to make you feel better because I can relate to some of it. I recently turned 21 and just have no idea what I'm doing most of the time, I'm a mess socially which makes working really hard for me. I've always thought I'm weird as well. Why? No idea, it's just been a thought in my mind for as long as I can remember.

I'm hoping it passes one day. I came across this recently and it really helped me "Adult brains aren’t done developing until 26. A lot of shit happens in the next 8 years, a lot of self reflection and soul searching. You’ll be a totally different person each year going forward and that’s totally okay. You’ll learn to be comfortable with yourself over time. Just go with the flow and know eventually you’ll feel comfortable in your own skin. "