Yea so. I'm a mess over all of this lately. I'm telling you to, back off and taking to myself non stop.. I'm thinking about you all the time.. Everywhere during my day im distracted by the idea of what are you trying to tell me... I'm really tired of it but fully pulled in to something I can't find my way out of. When I call you or text you deny it and dismiss me.. Back here you say other things. I go looking and find more stuff. I really think the only way out is to bring it up here and let the cards fall where they do.. I'd. Be honest for once.. But would lose everyrhing I worked so hard. To get back.. And you would still be the same I think
Sorry. M you don't need to hear this. I'll shut up and go away soon but this is affecting me and why I texted you. Yes you were dismissive and it helped me pull away but I kept looking after
Oh my God I'm tired and spent. I need to unplug on my beach.. Love