Then your parents have it all wrong. And they are blinded by politics. I’ve read what you said and I’m telling you that you weren’t a Christian then even when you thought you were.. because if you actually knew christ, then you would never have left christ. Because he chooses us not the other way around. My giving my life for other is not because I’m “told” to, because God doesn’t tell people they have to do that. It’s not merit based. I am a sinner, I have failed and I deserve death as the penalty. I am blessed to be where I am in life, ex drug addict, ex alcoholic and in and out of jail, and so I help others because I was once helped.