Ugh. I feel this. When I’ve watched the videos, I know those tears. Those are melancholic tears. Those are the tears of someone truly getting a sense of what they’ve been denied.
I have fairly severe depression but I get along pretty well, mostly through coping mechanisms and an acceptance that this is my “normal”. There have been a handful of days of my life where it was just... gone (like 3). The last time it happened, I just f*cking cried. It hurt that what I was feeling was what most people likely feel daily. My “normal” was revealed to be greatly lacking and that the next day I’d likely return to it.
So, yeah. Ask about the glasses. I get it. Sometimes not knowing is better