Oh man. Well, this is a bummer. I've been playing League since season 1. In season 2, I started to get in to ranked and ended in silver. In season 3, I played more and ended in gold. Last season, I ended in platinum. This season, I played a ton and managed to work my way up to that sweet, sweet diamond I had been longing for. Unfortunately, earlier this year I had a lot of things going on. My parents getting a divorce, not getting into the college I wanted, and the job I had all my life and loved was going out of business. I was severely depressed for a while and immaturely I took out in my league games. I know I was a huge jerk to people, because it was an outlet and playing League was the last thing I felt I had control over. So, it lead me to be pretty rude to people a lot of the time. I got one of those 7-14 day bans which I knew I deserved, and tried my best to realize the people in my games had nothing to do with what was going on in my personal life. I'm a generally nice person, on and off the rift, and it still makes me sad to know how I treated people in game. I never EVER reached the point of telling people to go kill themselves or wishing cancer upon their family or anything of that nature. I would usually just be short tempered and tell people they messed up and were playing bad and wasting MY time. I know, immature. Either way, I hate that that phase is now defining the type of player I am. I'm really not a toxic person, I'm not angry or have behavioral problems. I actually had ribbons for the longest time. It just makes me sad knowing that after 5 years, and thousands and thousands of ranked games, my final end goal will be completely cut out because of my immaturity for not knowing how to deal with real life earlier. I should have taken breaks from League while dealing with these things, but at the time it felt like it was the only thing I could do. I guess I have to move on and learn from this. I'm not excusing myself or saying I don't deserve any of the punishments listed, but it definitely sucks.