Some advice: when looking for friends, don't mention any of the things on you mentioned on here.
Anyone who has depression won't want to be friends with you because they believe their life is bad already, anyone without depression will stay as far away from you as they can so you don't "harsh their vibe" and anyone recovering from depression will won't want to be your friend any more, because you're the very thing they are recovering from.
Right now, in my eyes, your identity is: depression. I have had it for fives years, but now I cope with it and try to help others. I'm fairly happy now-a-days, but I live a pretty... irregular lifestyle. I haven't talked face to face with someone for a month and a half, I sometimes wake up at 9pm and go to sleep and 2pm, and yet I'm still very happy. How? Mostly philosophy, critical thinking, and logic. You have no emotional control and what is much worse is you have (I'm assuming) no bravery. I personally believe these are the two worst traits anyone can have, and I've spent the last five years correcting them in myself. I've been fairly successful, but I still have a long way to go. No longer am I a slave to depression, no longer do I let it identify me, no longer.
So, what games do you play?