I ended up picking up the half g and I just finished it. I’m for sure gonna miss this drug but I know for a fact it made my life worse no matter I split the pie.I’ve already spent a good amount of money on it. My parents learned about my cocaine use early on because I’m terrible at hiding things. My sister is worried sick about my habit because she knows what it’s done to her friends. It’s interesting because I feel like I’m in a good place right now with my job and my relationships even thought I just lost someone very close to me, but I built those bridges pre-coke use. I can already see my future deteriorating if I continue using this crazy substance. I still wanna do it again in the far future, but I have too much at stake to keep this habit going. I understand that doing more could change my whole life and I’m nah tryna risk that. The most fucked up part is that I’m coked out of my mind as I’m typing this and I feel amazing so I’m nah tripping over the work I’m gonna have to put in when I stop. Goddamn coke is a sinister drug. It’s like a toxic relationship with a person but there’s something about it that keeps u coming back for more. I just wrote a fuckin essay my b ima regret this tomorrow