If I went into detail, it may take just about forever to type, but I think you might understand my point of view more. Let me copy and paste a few texts I've sent a friend about this: "Things turned sour on Tuesday while on vacation. He and I drank a little too much.Anyways, we got a little too drunk and some communication got mixed up. We were at this floating tiki bar where a ton of couples' names were written all over the wooden surface. He wrote our names down - obviously made a scene about it too because he stood on top of the bench to write our names on the ceiling where it wouldn't be sanded off. When he got down, I proceeded to give him a small kiss where he then got all mad at me and told me not to kiss him there, and that it is "not safe" or "cool" there. So, I didn't give him the kiss. Anyways, we finished our drinks, wanted to go to the boat to grab some cash to tip the bartender because he gave us free drinks, and on the way back, I wanted to hold his arm in which he pushed me away and told me that he "hates it when (I) do that" and that he "hates to be touched"and that there's a "time and place for everything," even though he just fucking spanked my ass in public several times minutes and seconds before. We were on a private island owned by Royal Caribbean. We went on a cruise. There were two other young couples there. It was just a tiny little bar But anyways, though we were both a little too drunk, I still stood up for myself and I told him that I won't be talked down to or told what to do. He got very angry very quick, completely forgetting that we left the bar to grab cash, and he told me that I "destroyed" him and he has "done everything to keep me"... And he told me that we were over unless I went back with him to the bar - I told him "no" and I stood my ground. We were sitting at a table at that time. Anyways, he left, went to the bar, I stayed at the table by myself. He came back fifteen minutes later and told me that he called Royal Caribbean and I was scheduled to depart at Nassau and they would help me get a flight home. And he said he never wanted to see me again and told me to fuck myself. I let him run off again, I waited, and then proceeded to walk around the island to find him. I went all the way to the other end to find him and didn't find him. When I got back to the ship, I was held back and told to meet with security once they cleared me to enter. I went to the room first and he had ALL my things thrown around the room. He wasn't there, he went someplace else. I went to the front desk to speak with security, they had asked me to meet in an office where it was private, and a front desk clerk had to stay as a witness. I spoke with them and they told me that​ he stated I wanted to depart at Nassau. I declined that, and explained everything - I was sober by that time - and they took my word. They offered me a free room and took care of me, and they even called me to make sure I was doing alright. They gave me free unlimited calling back to the US from the ship and free internet to get a ticket from Nassau if I decided I wanted to depart from there. Oh and btw, he did tell me that the "truth comes out" when he's drunk... As he was drunk. That's when he told me he doesn't like being touched He just said that at that moment because he was mad and couldn't control his impulses. Anyways, we ended up talking a lot of it out and I explained how much he meant to me... The trip ended out much smoother and we did have fun on Wednesday through today. I think he had a moment made worse by alcohol, and so did I... He explained to me later he doesn't want me thinking he's going to take my things and doesn't want me to be scared of him. He also explained to me that it wasn't all my fault and that he doesn't know if he wants to continue the relationship because he "can't be nice to me" and is mean when he gets anxious. This whole thing could have been avoided with proper handling of impulses. He shouldn't have acted out. I shouldn't have acted out... Even though he was much worse. And this is where I'm confused... Not even two days before we left, he mentioned to me that he thinks he should go to rehab. Even just a 30 day program to bring his chemical balance back to normal since stopping the drugs cold turkey and getting on proper anxiety meds. We do drink often. He knows it's just a band aid and he wants to go to rehab. That's the part concerning me. I don't​ know if I should give how he treated me a blind eye because I know he's looking into going to rehab and he admits his problems. ... When I got home today, I had another guy suck me off without him knowing. He didn't cheat on me this time and he wasn't talking to any guys in any sexual way. But I still did something with another guy and I'm feeling really guilty because he didn't cheat on me this time Like, we forgave eachother for the most part, but he refuses to talk in detail about what happened and things"