I'm a bit worried too. My immediate family is generally alright although still warming up to the idea, but they value my happiness above all else. My extended family is a different matter though and I'm afraid I might cause some divisions, my mom already had a falling out with her sister because she called me autistic within earshot. I know if my conservative family members react to me my parents will probably go apeshit on them and I really don't want this to be a huge deal. My dad is conflicted but he's generally a pretty well-thought person and is genuinely trying, he's even offering to get me one of my favorite guitars for Christmas. I'm scared he feels like he's letting me down when I know how difficult it is to reassess views, and I was mostly scared about coming out because I knew he would feel like a terrible person. I don't want to cause a divide with his sisters because we were finally getting sort of at peace with everything. My cousin is getting married this summer in my hometown and the pre-wedding party is potentially going to be at my workplace, and I'm genuinely terrified about all them (and my coworkers) seeing me if I'm on T by then.

I also tend to be a nostalgic person, and as much as I hate the meat sack I'm in I know I'll still feel kinda sad tossing the image I've built away even if it's going to make me so much happier.