Insomnia is a fucking bitch. I’ve had it for about 20 years. I’ve tried over the counter sleep meds that make me drowsy but they don’t put me to sleep. I’ve tried prescription sleep meds that when the dosage was too low, they don’t work and when the dosage is too high, they make me feel sick and hung over the next day. It’s beyond frustrating. I have the perfect environment for sleep. I live alone, my place is quiet and clean. My bed is extremely comfortable. I’ll take a nice hot shower before bed and no matter how relaxed and tired I am, I’ll lay down in bed feeling exhausted and can’t shut my fucking brain off. I have all these negative thoughts that come into my mind and I don’t know how to shut them out. I think about bad things that have happened in the past, things I don’t like about life in the present and fretting about the future and wondering what it will bring. I dread going to bed at night.