I'm sorry, fam.

I waited until 30 to transition because a lot of the dumb shit you're saying.

You will pass. You will be loved. Life will be so much more than you ever thought.

However...

It will come out at a cost ... You will find out who really cares about you and who is just in love with the idea of you, very quick. If you think just shoving this away is going to make it go away... I got some bad news for you... I've binged and purged so many times I've lost a wife, fiance, multiple girlfriends, my family, even my best friend... Eventually The good ones will come back around and apologize... But, you can try to deny it all you want... You're never going to not have this urge and the dysphoria isn't going to go away because people approve of you.

I highly suggest you do some soul searching, because you are the only one that can make this decision. I read back pretty transition to through my journals to find out I really wasn't happy like I was telling everyone I was... All I wanted was to be me... And now I love me. ❤️