I don't know your name, your age and i don't even know where you are from we here are all random in the same situation as you friend, don't feel ashamed or bad asking for help everybody that is in here is going through some hard times and im glad that i can do something or at least try something to help you, my life is miserable too im new to reddit but i realy want to help you, if there is some private chat we could talk more and you could tell me everything you want, life is made of moments and emotions you had happy times in your life, even thought things seem they won't get better you must keep on because they get better trust me the get better, it might take long and be painfull but there is nothing that can stop your power of will so please just keep some hope, nobody wants to face bad times but they appear and we must face them, take care of yourself and face those bad days go after the solution of your problems and if you don't know what or where to begin i will help you, i promisse you things get better