Firstly, this sort of anger and disrespect of boundaries is concerning. I know you see that.

You have probably suffered some other sort of unhealed rejection in your life, that this is dragging up. It is likely to go back as far as a childhood experience or a difficult upbringing, and often ties into self esteem.

I strongly suggest therapy, I'm concerned for your health and concerned that your behaviours are indicative of danger for those around you.

Being able to talk about your feelings in a safe environment where you can be honest, is the pathway to feeling better mow & to working out why you feel like this.

You'll likely find that your anger is actually an easier way to admit sadness, unhappiness, or rejection.

This can be healed if you out the work in.