[M4F] Playtime, Desperation Mode. Day 6/7 [Tease and Denial][Edging][Description][Stroking noises][Fantasy]

Oh god! Please ... don't even put the idea in my head, haha.

I might as well end it all anyways, since that little RO, well ... ruined this denial. The purity of the denial has been comprimised :p

Really, after that happened my first thought was "well screw it, might as well cum now", but I didn't immediately act on those urges. Then my next thought was "well, that's one ruined, guess I should keep doing more until there is no cum left ...", haha.

Instead of either option, I just took a break and fixed some breakfast.

For whatever reason, the longer I go denied, when I know I'm going to cum more and harder each day I add on, part of my brain wants me to have ruined orgasms instead of allowing my that pleasurable, full release, just to be extra cruel.

I always think back to one of the first long denials I did. I had an online domme then, only my second one, but she disappeared after a week or so. But I kept waiting, since I hadn't technically received permission to cum yet, hoping she might suddenly show back up at some point.

Eventually, after 20 days denied, and no signs of her, I gave that up. By then I'd been talking with a new online friend a lot. She used to watch me tease and edge myself on cam almost every day. She came up with the idea to do a dice roll.

Certain numbers would mean keep the denial going, others that I could cum, and others ruined orgasms. Of course, I rolled one of the RO numbers and proceeded to do some last minute teasing and edging as my friend watched, then ruin 6 straight orgasms ... if I'm remembering the number correctly.

Just wasted away all of that build up, what would have been one hell of an orgasm ... instead subjecting myself to the horrible frustration of ruined orgasm after ruined orgasm, as my friend watched me in total glee, haha.

She was/is a cruel one (was, since I hardly hear from her anymore) ... that's for sure. She would have me staying denied or having only ruined orgasms pretty much all the time. She almost always preferred the idea of either of those to me having a nice, pleasurable orgasm.

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