I'm not really FA so I rarely comment on this sub, but this story hit me really hard and now I'm crying.

I'm pretty good looking and attract female attention sometimes, but I have absolutely no ability to maintain interpersonal relationships and find them very stressful. I have trouble maintaining eye-contact and force conversation. Even with the occasional incident of female attention, I don't have much hope of maintaining a long-term relationship.

My parents and I have this exact conversation at least once a year and my mom frequently cries over it. She tells me that I just need to talk to more people, but the reality is that I have long losered myself out of any possible friendship or relationship with most people I know, and wouldn't/couldn't maintain one even if I hadn't. At my work, school and clubs I have been relegated into the category of "weird guy", which is hard to escape once you're in it.

I brought over a girl once, a couple years ago, which never went anywhere but my mother stills asks about her since it's the only time she's seen me with another person. My father often brings up the philosophical topic of "maybe you'd have more friends if we had forced you to socialize more" and is oblivious to the pain that statement brings me. My parents always ask me blamelessly every year if I have plans for Saturday/Valentine's Day/St. Patrick's Day/whatever special occasion where normal people would go out, when they already know that the answer is no. It's like pouring salt in a wound. My mother gets me Valentine's Day cards for me now because she knows I'm not getting one elsewhere lol.

I wish my parents would stop taking the responsibility upon themselves to force socialization on me. My negative socialization is pretty set in stone at this point, there's not much point in awkwardly going to the bar with coworkers I don't like to try and associate with them in futility.