All good. I actually don't mention to people that schizophrenia runs in my genes anymore because I've had that many bad reactions from doing so.

And im scared to speak to a psychologist because I don't wanna get a diagnosis lol. Might seem silly but I definitely have some uh, questionable quirks. At the same time I feel like it's not only my biggest weakness but my biggest strength. I feel like im quite open minded and a creative thinker. Growing up my maths was off the charts(even though i'm uneducated now thanks to good ol life being a bunch of bullshit). But those talents are the same crutch that make me so good at coming up with silly ideas and paranoid thoughts. Connecting things into conspiracies n such.

Every so often the days feel really gloomy, the sky seems dark and I get paranoid. I always try and work out what is different on those days and fight my way out of it. I'm yet to come up with a solution.