A beautiful city with exquisite architecture left to rot and decay, what do you expect? Philadelphia is so rich you can feel it pulsing through your veins as you take It In…

Plagued with death, human trafficking, heavy drug trafficking, and very very dark underground shops where you can stumble upon the worst of it what this world has to offer.

I remember one time while in the process of trying to degrade myself to become less than human so I could justify suicide i entered a sex shop where I was told I could score Heroin, as I walked down Into a labyrinth of tunnels through the basements of connected delis convinces stores and apartment buildings i found my self in the depths of hell.

despair surrounded me death was there and working over time and I just melted, I felt hate roll through my body… I hated my self these people and this life, I knew this is what I needed to step off the edge and end my misery. After seeing the dirty snuff porn or whatever you call it vendors trying to sell disgusting porn videos and the heroin dealers selling needles and heroin and watching lifeless men jerking on limp unresponsive cocks they’ve become bloody due to meth psychosis obviously beating their dicks to raw meat… hell it was hell I seen it.

It’s here people, it’s real… I try to forget but the pain Is to much I want to forget I want to forget it just hurts to much my soul hurts it burned my souls seeing this stuff

I hate myself for It I feel like it’s my fault for everything I feel Ike it’s my fault for seeing it, I wish I never knew about it I wish I could just, step out. I’m sad I want to step out. I’m sad I want to forget it I’m more than sad I think, I might be broken I’m sad people. I’m sad