I understand this so much. I can really get in my head about it and then I end up self sabotaging. I think for me it’s a mix between not being genuinely interested in or passionate about what I do for work AND also I think it’s about letting go of old, negative habits that are so familiar to me even though I know that I’m functioning at like 30% capacity of what I could be doing. It feels uncomfortable adjusting to a newer and more evolved version of myself and so i put it off. Even though I rationally know only good things would come of it, it’s almost scary bc it’s like holding myself to a higher standard and what if I can’t keep it up.

Idk. Not sure if any that made sense but it helped me to read a lot about it online and learn about how others experienced it. Good luck to ya.