How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself. I am 14 years old, female. English is my second language, first language being Korean. I am constantly trying to improve, or I like to feel that I am improving. I like to hang out with one person at a time. When I am with multiple people, it drains my energy. I like to believe I’m not bad at socializing, though.
Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow? No.
Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it? Both of my parents are very free. I don’t know if it is the accurate type, but they also have the opposite MBTI type, my mom being INTJ and my dad being ESFP. My mom helped me explore with my curiosity and gave me many pieces of advice, which I am very grateful for.
My mom is Christian, so I go to a church. I didn’t question much of it before, but now I am starting to feel like Christianity is limiting my thoughts and exploration. Since I am still young, I am still figuring things out.
What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not? I am a student. I don’t hate school, and I enjoy learning new things, but I don’t like the school format. I think I learn a lot more efficiently when I study myself.
If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed? I like to be alone during the weekends since I am always surrounded by people during the weekdays. As long as I have everything to keep myself busy with, I will feel refreshed.
What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities? I don’t like sports. I would rather be indoors than outdoors. I dislike moving around too much.
How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate? I am quite curious. I do have a lot of ideas but I don’t often execute them other than telling some of my friends. If it is in my head, I can’t bother to execute it most of the time if I can’t think of a reason. My ideas are often conceptual, and I like to think that I am constantly thinking. I like to read Wikipedia pages and research about random facts. I also like to have personal projects, just to feel like I am accomplishing something.
Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be? No, I don’t enjoy it. I feel like too much is on me and I am afraid that I would make the wrong choice. I don’t mind giving advice, but I don’t like making decisions. But if I had to be the leader, some people might get frustrated because I don’t like making plans with a lot of details. I wouldn’t be a bad leader, though, because I am able to be direct and honest with people.
Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity? Nope. I have a very bad reaction time. I like to draw and do puzzles, but I hate crafting. My hands get all shaky and I get frustrated.
Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particularly artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forms of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer. I guess I like to draw, but I only started around two years ago. I never picked up a single pencil before then. I started drawing because I didn’t have any passions or hobbies at the time and I felt useless. I think drawing helped me a lot. I stopped drawing recently because I got a bit bored with it. I still enjoy looking at art.
What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them? I like to focus on the present, but my thoughts often drift off to the past, regretting some things. I like to think that I improved a lot more than my past, and I will keep improving in the future. In order to do that, I have to focus on the present and do what I should do.
How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so? I decline if I don’t want to, and I rarely accept, unless it interests me or the person has done a lot for me. I don’t try to show off as rude when I’m declining, though.
Do you need logical consistency in your life? Yes.
How important is efficiency and productivity to you? I like to be efficient and productive. At a point in my life, I watched Youtube the whole day and night. It was actually one of the lowest points I was at. I felt like a useless piece of shit and I didn’t know what to do. Now, I like to have at least one hobby or skill to improve. I do procrastinate a lot, mostly with work that I dislike, but when I start, I try to complete it as quickly as possible because I don’t want to spend too much of my time on it.
Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that? I don’t think I do. I just let people be.
What are your hobbies? Why do you like them? My hobbies change quite often because I get bored with them easily. Currently, I am learning to programme. I am enjoying it so far, it feels like I am solving puzzles with a goal. I am not that in depth yet, so I don’t know much. I also read. Reading is just fun for me. Fictions are entertainment, and non-fiction is fun to discuss. I read almost all the genres, except self-help books. It feels like they are trying to feed me with their opinions. I like to draw, watch Youtube, solve puzzle games like Picross and Sudoku, and I recently got into listening to music as well.
What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses? I like to read through. Verbal words don’t help me focus. I read very slowly and rethink how and why something is. After reading through, I take short notes which help me refresh my memory of what I read and thought. I like to have classes involving logic and creativity. I dislike memorization, but I can if I have to. I am bad at physical senses.
How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go? I mostly like to improvise as I go. Planning annoys me and I end up not following it a lot of the time. Since there are so many possibilities that can happen, I don’t understand why planning in detail is important. I do plan sometimes when I trying to do a big project because I can forget, but they’re very simple and vague.
What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally? I want to find a passion that I love and pursue that path. Even though I might not find that passion before I go to a university, I like to believe that I will find it someday. I want to continue reading and improving. I want to have a friend with the same thought process and interests as me so we can talk together.
What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why? I fear and hate being useless. I hate being ignored. I hate it when it feels like my presence is non-existent. I also fear not being as good as I expect myself to be.