The mark of the beast is when you are not an evil person it's when you are blinded and don't see evil in front of you done to you until you mentally break disconnected from everyone and act on self interests alone. I have taken it too. not once I wanted anyone to suffer people here say mental health crisis, mental health crisis is the beginning of the mark you start seeing your spiritual reality in things like vaccines (with me it was air pollution) and feel paranoia that further disconnects you from people and disguises the real stuff that cause the damage - abusive relationships. You have to be strong to maybe even find new and safe environment to be in. Mental health system didn't help me I ended up losing my mom this is no joke find someone you trust. Keep holding on to the good in you keep believing in it and stop giving it to people when they don't deserve it. I am no religious authority and am in a deep state of hell myself but in my eyes you are not evil and you are suffering and you are missed and wanted in heaven.