Based on what I have been seeing on TV...you have been enjoying yourself playing cricket in New Zealand.
Remember! It's a team game.
You want to achieve the greatesness of Williamson. ..?..... Baz , Taylor and many great batsman who have had the honors of playing for New Zealand in good times and bad..then like Melania Trump said "Be Best"
To do that you have to know your boundaries!
The butterflies will always be their in your stomach. ...but remember you got to give 99.99999% to be counted amongst the greatest batsmen...which means controlling emotions :)....and be good at catching,batting and motivating the entire team....baby sitting Rohit’s kid and being woody woodpecker is just part of the game....ha ha ha ha...oye
By the way...everthing you say is on mic.....I only wish if I was your age hearing batsmen of the past bat:=)
Be Well and good tidings