I've put up a wall around myself. I don't want to be in a romantic relationship. I can't trust someone in that way either.

But I can make friends. As soon as I started setting boundries the most awesome people started coming around. I discovered I'm not a terrible person like the narc told me my entire life. I can make people laugh, I'm a good listener, I'm great at baking and I have several other gifts and talents, including writing and drawing.

My self-confidence has gone through the roof. Whenever the narc's voice in my head says "No you can't," I say, "Hold my beer."

My social life is flourishing, where before, it was nonexistant. I had two friends, and they both live in different parts of the country. Now I have so many I can't even count them. We're going on day trips, away on vacation, to private weddings, graduations. Someone even asked me to do an art table with them at a local festival this year.

Before I was lonely. Now I'm not lonely. I'm never lonely.

My point being, try making friends first. I can trust my friends, but I still don't want a romantic relationship. However, at least I can trust someone. Maybe the same will happen to you. And who knows? Maybe you'll meet your soulmate that way.

Here's hoping.