I'm glad you're angry at me honestly.

but just starting to like her more at five months? something is very very off there.

I'm seriously NOT assuming you're an asshole all-around. But what you're doing to this girl is very cruel. It is okay if you hate me or..anything.

I just really want you to know that...if your girlfriend came across this post it would emotionally devastate her...and you thinking things like this constantly and it being your reality, I can guarantee that she doesn't comprehend that you simply feel kind of cold towards her (that is how I would describe it)

I have to say that...my boyfriend and I felt extreme, intense love for each other almost immediately, it took me a lot longer to say it but I cared for him deeply. And I always expressed everything I was feeling. I couldn't imagine with being someone nearly half a year who did not genuinely, profoundly..at least love me in a way, not necessarily in love-romantically..but love and accept me as a person.

does that make sense?

I'm sorry, I'm stoned and read your post and went a little off the wall and attacked you, and that doesn't help at all so I am sorry for that. I just feel..really really bad and defensive of your girlfriend because..a lot of us have been "that girl" that gets dragged along by careless men...and that's exactly what you seem like right now

I feel even worse for her..that she's already dealt with something like this before, that's probably why she's accustomed to it and putting up with it more than she would otherwise.

your relationship doesn't sound healthy and you feelings towards her don't really sound all that loving and supportive...

I just worry for your girlfriend's emotional and romantic wellbeing. I need you to know that there are plenty of men out there who would love her passionately and be able to appreciate her much more than you are right now. And that is why you should indeed feel somewhat bad about this.

The appropriate response to this is guilt and working on the issues that are stunting your emotional affection..not assuming there's something wrong with her/your partner

You are not a monster!! this is COMMON and socially acceptable for some reason in some circles

I also need you to know that there ARE girls (I would hope unless you have some underlying mental issues or something, WHICH IS FINE and can be fixed and addressed too..I'm not meaning to insult you..I have a fuckton of mental issues that are detrimental to relationships that I work on.on a daily basis)---anyway, sorry for rambling..just know that there are girls you will care for more, girls maybe..you would be in love with more

that doesn't mean, necessarily, commitment. perhaps you two are mismatched -- there are even people you could love that might accept open relationships etc. perhaps you're not suited for monogamy at this time AND THAT'S OKAY TOO, but I'm begging you to tell her all of this and be open with her so she can make her own decision. she needs to know all of this!! or else you're doing her a great disservice and basically lying to her :/