No, the thought of divorce has not crossed my mind once. We otherwise make a really great team, but I think the climate so far this year has been a very exceptionally stressful one and if we can make it through this, then we can get through anything. I'm talking about councilling mostly because we've been through a shit storm that has forced us to consider the mortality of the people that we love.

We need to find a way to communicate with each other about how we are feeling and what this house MEANS for us individually and as a couple.

He admittedly thinks about what to say next instead of listening. He's very "alpha". I'm a listener, but I can send mixed signals because I'm not very decisive. He's very decisive and moves quickly and this is typically a trait combo that has worked for us, not against us.

I'm considering taking the next semester off (I wrote a midterm the day my Grandma died...) and I feel that I need to wait until my Mom has entered her next treatment phase.

I did say that maybe we could do it while I'm between courses (which is now...) but I'm too worn out to invest myself into it, move my Mom into her new place, and then to move to ours. He said he'll handle the legalities...I just need to pick the house. But I want to be a part of all of it, not part of some of it. This is my first house. And the timing and reasons feel wrong.