He has made arrangements for me to be dropped back at my moms tomorrow. Abt the bible, he gave me an anecdote about how my aunt had asked him why he still listened to his mother disrespect him after he was married with children, and thats when he brought it up. He is very fixed on the point that i follow no religion, and feels like since he cannot sufficiently "help" the situation then there is no reason for me to be here. He got me a job where i had the panic attack, and his inability to comprehend why i follow no religion is making him sad. Thank you for the joke, though! And im better than i was. Ive been p suicidal for years but i have no inkling to off myself. Just like if someone was trying to kill me i wouldnt necessarily fight back. I did call the hotline, and the nice person on the phone calmed me down, but my grandfather firmly believes i wont be kicked out again even though there is evidence to the contrary. I know my mom is going to hold this over my head forever, since she did that to me getting a panic attack and fired from my first job. Im not happy about the situation, and if i go back my mom will probably want me to start paying rent money i dont have, and buy my own food with money i dont have. It is not an ideal situation, and im not so sure ill be kowtowing so much as being metaphorically beaten back into submission. Kind of like a "you couldnt even survive without me" kind of deal. Abt tenants rights: i dont think it applies if i cant pay whatever sum she deems necessary, because then she can kick me out in 3 months with no issues. Thank you for asking how i was doing though, i do appreciate it