I'm not intelligent, but I have no intellectual problems or learning disabilities, outside of the autism – if that even counts as one. Why don't I think I can be a functional adult? I'm autistic and have what I would consider severe mental health problems (moderately bad, at the very least) and I don't see them ever improving, and of course, autism cannot be "cured". I'm completely dependent on her, and if my mental health is this shitty with me having no responsibilities and not having to leave the house, how would I manage to be a functional adult? I rarely leave the house, it's almost always with my mum. I can't talk to strangers on the phone, and find it exceedingly difficult to talk them face-to-face. My depression means I can't look after myself properly. The eating disorder has probably fucked up my bodies in ways I don't know (I hope it hasn't, but if it hasn't I'll feel like a massive fraud since I've been severely underweight for years and had disordered eating for years). How can I face living alone, leaning the house everyday to wage-slave away when I don't even want to exist? I wish I could restrict my eating to the point that I shrink into nothingness. I can't, but I wish I could. At the moment I just drink to self-medicate since doctors have proven themselves again and again to be untrustworthy and unreliable. Alcohol abuse combined with a BMI of 15.2 does not good health make.