Thank you for sharing. I'm sorry about your personal history.

As for the rest: I wasn't talking about the "afterglow" feeling so much as about the sheer ecstasy and love you feel when breaking through. There are a few times when I didn't get it, mind you; but that's the exception, not the rule. How often have you broke through ?

Also, I loathe microdosing; except perhaps for depression treatment (reportedly it helps, especially with psilocybin). Most of the time though, it's used as some sort of gimmick to be "more productive" or "more efficient" in our fucked up society. Don't microdose, take a leap of faith and dose.

Our existence is very strange.

You can say that again; and we're fucked up creatures in general.