Ugh life is so sad. Like it's really hard for me to accept that I wont be able to see or talk to some people every day, which makes me unbearably sad on some days. People tell you to enjoy every moment but sometimes you cant and you inevitably fight over stupid things despite your best effort. Even with a ton of great memories, even those dissapear after a while and you move on, and all you can do is look at a photo or a box or an urn and try to remember what the person smelled like our sounded like or would say to you, and then u get sad all over again and angry at yourself for forgetting. And then u realize that everyone is forgotten to some degree, and u will be too, and u cant help but be sad about the point where you wont even be able to be sad about all the people you've forgotten.All the people u love just dissapear and u with them, and theres nothing u can do about it but pretend.