I once asked my second wife about carrying about this act daily when young beforehand and she agreed but I didn’t enforce it. I was much more interested in other things or people afterwards. She was wild and life thrilling but also not entirely not jealous briefly enough to the extent that she’d not interrupt moments I’d enjoy. She even asked to watch once. W/the chaos tho, and generally being unhappy. She wasn’t even worth degrading. She became insane enough to the point that I had to go and abandon anything requiring extended contact with her. She even tracked my car etc. Complete trash after the fact. I understand I’m not like most. But she was on a different level that was just dangerous if I wanted to be me.

She’d block the door sometimes. If we had fights and things escalated I couldn’t reasonably leave. She even once placed her car behind mine. After divorcing her and cutting ties w/my own family when returning home because they where trash. She became buddies with them.

I actually have a daughter about. But because of how laws are etc. I can’t initiate anything knowing that things could potentially blow up to the point that’s beyond what I’m interested in because of her violent behavior and outbursts etc along w/utilizing legal crap assisted by my fam of knowledge Iv decided to cut off. My own father couldn’t even stop harassing my mother when they divorced till she finally died. A sickness spread about.

Life’s crazy these days, people are dying because some trash are just dirty, pick their nose before pumping gas and don’t wear masks when buying fruits to shove into their body. When the topic comes about with subjugating someone to carry about a sexual act at any given interval. It just seems degrading. I just havnt come across someone I’d like to degrade and us both enjoy it with out being miserable at the same time knowing the escalation potential of literal potential death.

If I didn’t have such significant issues though. I’d probably be up to degrade someone like that. But they would have to have to get off on it too on an unspoken level thats comprehend outside of being literally not ok.

My own gf doesn’t even like my loads. We have to do some crazy co-op maneuvers off the bed before disengaging while she leaks on the floor and I wash up just so we keep the bed clean. And I like to get the rest out so I go again and it’s the same deal. My current gf likes sex but is disgusted w/the fluids too outside of messing up everything she’s washed and prepped.