I'm 35. It's been 10 years since I've had a friend. I have tried every person I've known to hang out for a single beer or bowling, or anything, for years, each person multiple times. The only people who said yeah lets hang out and then after the 4th or 5th 'no' when finding a time thats good for them I give up on their pretentious ass (2 of these last couple of months). As sweet as your story is, I can't be bothered to wait. Getting struck by lightning indoors is more likely to happen for anyone to ask me out, even as a friend. And then I have to deal with toxic family that stole whatever i had left and kicked me to the curb so building any life with no college, no support, and tornup shoulder, 2-3 jobs and I still can't afford a place not in the slums, not enough money for therapy, (yes that thing everone on reddit swears by actually costs a lot of money). The big question is how long can I keep this up before I find a nice bridge to jump from.