Man i wish i could make myself go out and socialize.... It makes me so sad that Im gonna be single forever because my own problems are too damn much for most people...
I work like 50 hrs a week, I'm usually busy 7am till 6pm or later (almost no free time)
Extreme social anxiety with new people (I am a friendly, funny, and communicative person with people i've known for a few weeks. But new people get turned off from being my friend before they meet the real me)
agoraphobia (from covid-fears despite being vaccinated now, when i see more than 10 people in a crowd my brain freaks out and I have to isolate or keep my head physically down)
EXTREMELY introverted (more than 30 mins of socializing and I need a few mins by myself to cool off)
PLUS!!!! Extra credit time!
Just admitted I am a Bisexual male, so that's kind of a turn off for women despite me being hetero-romantic and I have never actually "been" with a guy, just acknowledging that attraction is there for certain people.
Also....my gender is NOT cis. I dont know where that leaves me, probably demiboy/genderfluid/nonbinary.
I just know woman find it creepy/unattractive when guys aren't the stupid stereotypical STRONG dominant cis-het masculine muscular man ( which is a roll i have 0 desire to fill, and makes me depressed and suicidal trying to force myself into that box. I'm caring, and soft, and kind and those are the best parts about myself, i just wish others saw that....
Also, i have several severe mental health disorders, undiagnosed, untreated, no therapist, suicidal every day but choosing life, also I am addicted to self harm but I am in recovery (kinda sorta)....
I am a fucking weirdo dude, but almost no one knows the whole picture because I hide all those broken parts of myself.
When people ask "why are you still single" I just nod or laugh or make some dumb joke so they dont know how lonely I am......
My positives: pretty hot tbh