Want meth.

The Course is not teaching you to destroy yourself in the dream, but to wake up from it. It's the ego that wants you here, in hell you've created. Detachment doesn't mean not caring about your world. You still need to care and be normal. You cannot reach heaven in a state of mind that is not prepared for it.

All the work happens at the level of the mind only. See with the Holy Spirit what decision is best. Observe what the ego is telling you to do vs what the Holy Spirit want you to do. True satisfaction and pleasure can never come from the world because you are not a body.

You may be scared, confused, or in pain. It will pass. You may even need help from any friends or family. It's difficult to kick an addiction, but there is no difficulty in order in miracles. Ask God for help to see this differently.

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