MGTOW beyond a life of anger?

It's been a few years now, but the anger/rage has never gone away. It has also never been very strong. I can't be angry at reality and nature. I am not happy about being lied to, and believing in that lie, for so long. I hate lies and liars.

Unplugging has really only put me into a very deep depression, because I already knew about all of the rest of the ways our collectivist society/government is fucked. Once I added the awareness that love isn't real, that women aren't ultimately capable of loyalty, and that intimacy/connection/romance/family/etc are nothing but another powerfull tool of enslavement (of all, but especially of men), it all culminated into a constant negative feedback loop. If I am angry at/in hatred of anyone, it is myself, for not being better able to "man up" or "let go," for being weak, for not having seen this fraud sooner, etc.

Countless hours of therapy, lots of reading, adjusting my diet, exercise, meditation, medications, supplements, etc etc - my life is still pretty unbearable, even though I have tons of first world comfort to be grateful for. Kudos to those of you who find happiness and freedom in this, in TRP, PUA, MRA, or whatever.

I am happy that I was smart enough to never marry or have kids, but that's about as far as it goes. When it eventually gets to be too much, or I can't take care of myself anymore, I have a reasonably good plan for ensuring that my body is never found. Further distance and isolation from anyone who's ever cared is happening on its own, so hopefully no one will be hurt or notice I am gone - I have to ensure that, as well as possible. Presumably, at that point, nothing will hurt anymore. Setting the terms of one's own departure is about as "going your own way" as it can get.

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