Okay, maybe you're not a troll, so I'll answer some of your questions:

As of now, I'm trying to compile my own personal recipe book, with my own simple instruction and illustration of Iraqi foods in English. After that, I want to compile recipe books on other cuisine belonging to Mediterranean cultures (Greek/Italian) and other European foods, and then Asian foods. I want to be able to cook meals without having to shell out ridiculous amounts of hard earned money on Taco Bell only to have my cheese quesidillas unmelted and sauceless.

I also want to learn primitive living, flint knapping, stone tool and weapon making (spear, atlatl, bow), making shoes and other attire from basic material like plant fiber and animal skins, homes, and primitive cuisine. I can't escape the thought of one day experience living in a primitive paleolithic/neolithic house, and living naturally for a span of time. What would it be like? Would I decorate it? What kind of furniture will I make (using primitive tools). I want to know if there were times paleolithic/neolithic peoples from different parts of the world would spice up their foods to make their meals more enjoyable to eat. If not, I'll try to, for a lack of better word, "simulate" a way in which a primitive people would make their food delicious enough using natural ingredients. I might take liberty in using "extra-regional" ingredients if the food is too "gross" to eat. If I even had the money and time afforded, I would love to free dive, hunt a lobster, spear it and then swim up to my primitive self made wooden canoe off a remote-ish island, and take it back to shore and try to find ways to make that lobster taste good using primitive spices that may have never been used before; perhaps I'll even cheat and just buy spices and take it with me if things don't go as planned. That is far off but I'll try to realize that when I have the time, but I'll probably never experience some of those dreams, like free diving in Polynesia and catching a lobster, and then cooking it on the beach, and then retiring to my self made tree house to watch the sun set (and rise in the morning).

So what way are you going?

Some way, my own individual way that is different from most other ways.

How are you improving yourself?

Trying to overcome my attachment to material things. I want to see if I can become self sufficient and able to live with relatively little. I feel that it must be a massive burden to be rich and then having to worry about all your possessions. Sometimes I think of stories I've been told of people who commit suicide because they lost money/investments, bankers jumping out of buildings, and other rich people dying from stress or killing themselves just because they went bankrupt, lost a great deal of money, or lost a job. Can a celebrity like Kardashian or even a male celebrity live in a three bedroom, two bath house built in 1955 in an average middle class suburb (or even less than that), or will they kill themselves? Can a banker who lost his wealth live in a small one bedroom apartment?Despite being an atheist, I still remember what Jesus is reported to have said according to Shia Islamic tradition: My hands are my servants and my feet are my mount; the earth is my bed, a stone my pillow; my blanket in the winter is the east of the earth and my lamp in the night is the moon; my stew is hunger and my motto is fear; my garment is wool and my fruit and my basil what grows from the earth for wild beasts and cattle. I sleep while I have nothing and I rise while I have nothing, and yet there is no one on earth wealthier than I."

Who is the man you want to be?

The man I want to be is a work in progress. I see the man I want to be as a self sufficient, hard working, kind, humble, and humane, who minds his own business and treats others justly, including animals. I would like to be a man with masterful control of emotions and other reckless behaviors, a man who is able learn new things and adapt to changing surroundings. Healthy in mind, character, and body. Etc. Is this man too perfect? Maybe, but I'll be happy if I could come close to that and I'll at least try.