Our brains don't let us think about the negatives. Every time we try to go that way and imagine the sights, sounds and feelings, our mind wonders to something else.

Do you think you could take a moment to think about this that you wrote: "if I keep going like this I won't have a future in the first place"

Can you imagine what that would look like? Where are you? What are you doing?

My assumption is that you are referring to careers, family and houses but just consider for a moment that you're 14 and there are so many external things that have fallen on your lap so far - mostly bad but with time good things will land too. And even if they don't, just think about some of the losers in your class at school. Think about everything you have going for yourself that is so much better. Do you think they're worried at all about their careers?

There's people that drop out failing on the basics like 1+1=2 but then find a way to live contently and happily. They find the joys in relationships, travel, movies, reading etc. despite everything.

Your feelings may not be what's in your heart but in the hearts of those around you who would rather focus outwards. Listen to your own heart. ♥