i don’t know what I’m between the two that you mentioned.

example, i have a mindset of wanting everytime that i go to the gym make personal record or make progress, do better than the last one that i had. if i fail and don’t make progress i become depressed and think i didn’t do well, not that i rage or stop everything, but i become sad and depressed. i’m also constantly video taping or watching my form, especially on certain compound lift because i want everything to be perfect before progressing and always end up not progressing at all and deloading weights to fix things.

i mentioned perfect and i feel bad for mentioning i want everything to be perfect before progressing. :/