Minimalism turned me into a THUG and I'm done with life

that's already progress if you can admit that about yourself. and that makes sense, that you're trying to enter new lifestyles/fashion senses as form of self treatment. how your post ends reads more as a cry for help rather than a rant.

what you need is a proper support system, someone well versed and unbiased to help you through this. therapists have unconditional positive regard for their clients- they won't judge or criticize you, but will see you as a person who is trying their best to improve. and clearly, you are trying to improve, just seeking help in the wrong places.

i know we're just strangers on the internet, but believe me, i can understand how you feel right now. the lapse in character, the meltdowns, all of that happened to me last year. but i also know internally how deeply i was struggling, and how desperately i wanted someone to see the humanity in me. this world is not better off without you. your will to improve your character is sufficient. not only is it sufficient, but how you proactively taken steps to try to improve shows a lot.

take a breather, log off of reddit, and look up a therapist. maybe make amends with your dad if you can. i really wish the best for you.

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