I used to work at a movie theater by the river. A few times a week as I was closing I would have to call the cops to come and take away Native Americans who had passed out in the theater. After a few years I realized that the cops were taking them somewhere to beat them up. The thing was that I missed the midnight bus so many times because I had to deal with passed out native americans that I stopped caring what was going to happen to them.
I never thought I'd become a racist but that is what i found myself becoming. I eventually refused to sell them tickets. They would sneak in. Nearly every day I had to deal with complaints that someone was smoking, drinking, huffing, naked, screaming swears at the movie, etc. It wasn't always natives, but probably about %80 of the time it was. I lost my compassion. One night I was kicking out a guy (for the second time) because you can't smoke during a movie or stay for three showing of that movie. As he walked out he told me he would kill me if he ever saw me on the street. I lost my shit and said something like "lets just do it right now". He charged at me. Luckily he was drunk and off balance because otherwise I probably would have died. The details are hazy for me-I was in a white hot rage- somehow I threw him into the wall and he fell to the ground. I jumped on top of him and started punching him in the face. The only thing I remember at that point is thinking "why can't I punch him any harder". The usher pulled me off him and he stumbled out the exit. Cops had been called by a patron. When they got there they told me they already picked him up outside. They asked me if I wanted to press charges. I declined and they said "Don't worry, we'll take care of him."
I'm not sure why I share this story right now- vodka. I don't defend this cop. He's super sleazy and using his position of power in the shittiest way. But back then I would have been able to relate to how he felt about certain native americans. In the 5-6 years I worked there I didn't have a single positive interaction with a native american, and probably about 200 negative interactions(not exaggerating). I'd imagine it's even worse for cops. They pretty much only ever see people at their worst, eventually its gotta wear you down until instead of a person you just see a problem.
I so wish we could all live in a better world.