I have a draft email that I pour “the feels” into. So I am with him in the page u til the feeling passes. Remind myself NC. Our situation is tough. We met when I was visiting a friend out of state. Fell hard. One kiss. One. Four weeks of texts and calls. Then we both knew neither one of us wanted to have an affair outside of our marriages. Too much risk. Too much angst. To much guilt. The 800 miles between us. No one ever affected me so deeply in 24 hours. I know I sound crazy. BTW.. I have a great husband. I want this other man so badly. I know he wanted me too. I think about him all the time. I deleted his number. I still know what it is- but now less chance I spontaneously text. This will pass.