Monthly Rant/Rage Thread - December 2021

I've always hated special holidays especially CNY & Christmas since I was young. It has truly been an unbearable pain for me to see all my friends go along with their families, gather, and have fun together as this holiday is supposed to be celebrated. I never get to feel the "Christmas joy" like people always said. Never once in my life did my family go to church or somewhere for holiday together. Even I never go to church with my siblings. In fact, it never will happen till I am dead.

I know NO families are perfect, but, if your family can celebrate holidays or maybe talk to each other without one of them feeling uncomfortable and hateful, then you're so damn lucky. I don't know how people could endure this kind of feeling, especially when you're surrounded mostly by friends who have loving-functional families that I only can dream of. No one deserves this kind of family. Sometimes I feel I'm strong that I have been able to experience this my whole life.

Honestly, I feel extremely embarrassed writing this..... I don't want people to pity me.

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