Mood stabilizer vs antipsychotic?

The only antipsychotic that has been effective for me is lithium. But it kind of turn reality bland and grey, if that makes sense. Still better than believing that I should be dead. Every antidepressant I've ever taken has pushed me into hypomania, sometimes a dark, depressed hypomania called mixed state, or energetically suicidal as I like to think of it. Which is crazy dangerous. So I just take lithium and try to be as close to normal as I can. Seroquel and geodon were the worst antipsychotics, effexor was the worst antidepressant. Adderall nearly sent me into full mania. Ymmv, don't use the internet in the place of a Dr. But that's my experience.

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