Moon sign and mother

Cap Moon here, 100%. Mother was super strict, cold, anaffective, logical, academy and discipline oriented. When I was physically sick I was stealing here time and energy from work. When I was sad or in emotional needing she's never ever been there. Actually her projected goals ruined my life, since she forced me to study too hard until I had a severe burn out, and she forced me to tolerate the abuses of a very older man because he was the one. She never ever protected me, I've always felt like she's the one who puts me in danger, or under heavy responsibilities. She's blind towards my needs and she has always rejected me if I didn't strictly adequate myself to her standards. She was always busy when I was a kid, I've grown up with my grandparents and even if I love them and I'm lucky I feel like this has been another abuse by her, because she KNEW the both had their mental problems, she was supposed to protect me by her depressive bipolarism and his rage problems (never towards me but he was so abusive towards grandma!), she was supposed to protect me and failed. When I was 21 I had an abortion, she put me on a bus the day after and sent me to a far distant college because "no one had to know". I was alone taking meds and crying. She has never been somebody warm and safe for me. But my ability to love is freaking deep and stable and eternal, and I'm proud to be who I am.

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