I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I know exactly what you are talking about. Within months I lost my husband, daughter and every friend I’ve had for twenty years. You are NOT alone. For the past few days I’ve cried a million tears and has those images as well. All I can say is everyday do something, one thing to make yourself feel better! Whether that’s taking a walk, journaling, praying, finding a church support group. We have to be proactive. It’s gonna take work but it’s gonna get better!! We can do this, we can’t give up. Please find someone you can talk to and be completely honest with. You can’t hold this all in, no one should hurt like this alone.