Cozy for me, suffocating for her Healing for me, toxic for her Special for me, hindrance for her Not meant to be but that's my soul mate right there.

Idk man. I cringe at myself for the shit I do. Idk how I got friends lmao. I wouldn't wanna deal with me. Toxic needy bitch. I wish she loved me man but you got no power over people that don't care about you. No matter how much you love em. Not her fault. This is for the better ik. But I just miss her. I feel stupid. I won't talk to her for her sake but most importantly cause ik she's over me. I can't bear to hear her talk to me like I'm just some dude. Fuck that. Don't need my head acting on me again. Never again. Finally snapped out of it. Therapy of a hundred kinds. Got the help I needed causea her. And for the first time in my life I'm actually happy. It wasn't even the rehab, it was more me not caring about shit I can't change and accepting things I'm not capable of. I can't be a hero, not overnight. But yeah I still miss her. Even after all the shit that happened. Dying over here but I'll make it. One day I might talk to her again tho. When I know for sure I won't stress her or make her uncomfortable. And like I'm successful and shit. Ripped and rich and happy and stable. She will say no but idc I'll still try