I was heavily self-medicating with it for depression for a while, I think my anti-depressants made the THC effects a lot less intense, so I built up a tolerance rapidly. Being high was the only way I had found to not just be happy, but even just to be in a neutral state (instead of that constant feeling of deep despair). This led to a psychological dependence, and I was spending a reckless amount of money at the dispensary.

The truth is that it had some really positive effects, at least at first. Getting out of that depression headspace allowed me to re-discover my creativity, and that altered state also helped me overcome a lot of obstacles.

Then, I had an insane greenout that was so traumatic that I still think about it all the time. It was like my depressive thoughts had completely taken over- I saw the entire world for "what it was", so-to-speak. I saw how we're just intelligent monkeys living on a spinning rock in space, and weirdly I saw some sort of view of the US government (some amalgamation of congress and senate) and how it was just this huge joke. Perhaps worst of all, I had horrible thoughts about my own life.

Anyway, I've been able to compartmentalize that experience, and the thoughts of "what if it was all true" are basically gone now. That experience also taught me how powerful drugs can really be- I had never been that high before. My theory is that the prescription I take created a sort of threshold where it dampened the THC effects, and I happened to cross that threshold- it really did suddenly come out of nowhere. Despite getting over most of the trauma from that, the memory still makes me so anxious that I haven't gotten high since.